October 10

I'm not really sure what has come over me, this challenge for some reason has been extremely hard. I was excited and couldn't wait till October got here and slipped into a depression the moment it arrived.

Celebration of our babies is always exciting for me but the reality that this is it. In addition to spending my life with should of would of could of's I have to anticipate the celebration of a month that is to honor child loss. So today on Day 10 Is grief, grief and I are great friends today :(