You'll be ok

You'll be OK your a strong person, I despise hearing those words it's almost as if someones implying that you had a choice to go threw such pain.

It has taken me years to truly express the impact of grief via writing because no matter how OK I told myself I was, its something about reading those words as you write it that makes everything more real. Loosing someone that was once everything to you, that you prayed for, dreamed of, hoped for, ext.

A person never recover after such loss but often I think we underestimate the impact grief really has on us.

We are forced to face the fat that we will never see them again, hear their voice know their future and we are stuck with the uncertainty of whether or not we will be reunited in heaven. And if that's the case we become anxious to see. Now this is not a suicide thing or nothing of the source its more of admittance of feelings otherwise to afraid to admit to someone because of your typical pity remarks.